Going through my list of goals for the year 2016 feels good. I have never written down concrete goals or resolutions for myself ever. It was quite refreshing to have something to reference reflecting on the year past. Every single thing on my list got done in a matter of speaking. Some things can be improved, and others I think I did pretty well. Here goes...
Starting at the top....
One: Get back into the flow of me. As a rather vague goal for the year, I suddenly remember the state I was in at the end of last year. I had graduated, moved across the country, landed a job immediately out of school, and lost the person I had always known myself to be (all in a matter of a couple months). I stopped working out, had no friends in a new town, stopped being creative...completely. Of course, this had happened once before... when I started having heart complications, and was unable to continue athletics. But this time was different. I felt lost in my adult life, and unsure of where or who I was. Id like to say this goal was definitely completed, but I will have to also admit that I have lost myself once again.
I began to fall into my old and more "me" habits right around the time I quit my job and said enough to the Dallas Burbs. I got a new job and moved to the artsy part of the city in downtown Dallas. I was working out every morning, drawing, and creating every night. From April-July I had a solid four months of feeling great. Once my heart complications reoccurred, I quit the gym but continued pushing with my art. I have not felt like im spiraling back down that unfound path until recently. Maybe its a winter thing, maybe its an end of the year thing. I don't feel like I am in as bad of a place as I was last year, but Im definitely not where I was those lovely four months of the true me and blissed out vibes of creativity and gym sessions.
Lately I have begun to feel a bit lost again, very insecure with my work and in my head ALOT. The election and some of the podcasts I have immersed myself in have taken a large part in this feeling. The realization that my views and the way I see myself and the world are vastly different from many is also something that has began to bother me. At this point, some of my goals for this year will definitely be in relation to some of the things being brought up in this weird moment of insecurity.
Two: Do more activities after work. A+ in this arena! I have dominated this goal. Instead of watching episode after episode of tv shows I have seen over and over (the Office, the L Word, breaking bad, dexter... yall know how it goes). I started making things nonstop this year. I have a whole section of studio space at the apartment filled with paint, and scraps of projects. I started and filled up four sketchbooks, not to completion, but enough ideas from the year to be satisfied. This goal took a while and lots of focus in the beginning, but now it is just habit. I cook and bake more, I craft more, and I feel a lot better the next day at work like I accomplished something the night before. Even found a couple of friends and attended some meet ups (not a grinder reference!)
Three: Blog once a week. I feel pretty good about this one. There were a few dry spells (specifically the month of October), but going back and seeing that I did this pretty well makes me happy. The blog has been a way to get down some thoughts and track what im working on. I want to take the blog into a new direction this upcoming year, but it was mostly meant to keep tabs and record things that are happening creatively. I was able to document and write about some experiences with my old job and attending market. I documented travel, art, and shows. Its great to reread some of the old posts and remember the thought process of some of my finished and lots of unfinished work.
Four: Weave more....check! Considering I have a job I get to weave at, and I am currently making a fashion line out of woven sections, I think this goal is in the bag! I also joined a monthly weaving project email list, and a Dallas Weavers group that has meet ups once in a while. A great group of girls all around!
Five: Draw and Pattern every week. This one was a more realistic goal. I wanted to do this every day originally, but I think once a week was perfect because this was mostly completed. I work some freelance for a small textile sales team and get projects every couple of weeks. I like to pattern on my lunch breaks and sometimes doodle in my sketchbooks. The habit of doing it every week is healthy as a creator.
Six: Look into and apply for gallery shows and calls for entry. This one took a while to start, but I was able to get some things done in the last couple months of the year. I have a couple business cards and information that will be useful for this next year, but I also ended up participating in some shows. I just had a show at a local art gallery with a group of other small thing makers. Ihad a group pop up and a local market. RecentlyI applied, interviewed and got into the Pinshow, which is in February, but it still counts as this goal!
Seven: Photograph more. This goal could have been better achieved, however, I did photograph more than the previous year! I had a shoot with a friends fashion line over two days, and a couple shoots of my own work with some local bloggers. I also spent some days shooting my art in the studio, and have a couple additional photo-shoots planned out for the next year.
Eight: Travel more. I definitely traveled a lot this year, but I think the intention of this goal was to travel more in Texas, taking some weekend trips. I intended to do this more and had plans for a couple of short trips around Texas. Life seemed to happen, and get in the way. Without a doubt I fulfilled this goal, but its definitely going right back on the list for 2017!
Nine: Make Jewelry. DONE! Done to the point where I actually cannot make anymore because I have run out of space to put them in my apartment. I came, saw, and conquered this goal, but now I just need to get rid of the product so I can continue making! I have so many more ideas to explore since I only got a taste of it. This next year will definitely be a time to market and sell some of the stock I have built up. I'm hoping to open an etsy, or even just a page on my site. 2017 goals keep stemming from the 2016 goals.
Ten: Sell at Local markets. I sold at flea style, which was on my list, and another random Dallas art show. Neither went well, but I was happy to do them. They were on my list of goals, and I worked very hard in the weeks leading up to them to prepare. I feel like I do this often where I tell myself to go to markets and work so hard and then they fail. For some reason I just keep coming back and doing them again and again. I think I just really like the experience. The weeks leading up to it are so stressful, but bring me back to a time in college when the deadlines were crazy. Maybe im crazy to miss that, but I must! The nostalgia of it all brings me back to times that seemed tough but were really the easiest point in my life. Don't get me wrong, art school was hard.... really hard if im being honest, but I enjoy so much of what I was doing that it never felt like homework. It never felt like a chore, as stressful as it got, I enjoyed it the whole way through. That's what markets have become, a distant memory of college brought back to me.
With ten goals achieved, I have some new ones to write down. Some will be a branch of these, others will be fresh. I have a list started, but will continue thinking this last week of December. I will likely go through my stacks of unfinished projects and notes. The goals for 2016 were easy. I was so lost and stuck in a weird moment of my life my main goal was to just get back to where I was when I was happiest. I think this is a year for some challenging, resourceful, and planed out goals. Some that are easy, and some more difficult.
I have so many highs from this year. Since I have written already about most of them, there is really no need to do a yearly round up! The best times were probably spent exploring India and Art Basel Miami! The lows were definitely low... (cardiac arrest, a trump win...., extreme Delhi Belly bacteria infection). Ringing in 2017, I hope to better accept the negative things I cannot control. List of goals has already started!